"So I Can Sigh Eternally (Sad Boy Cento)" by Jessie Lynn McMains

It gets hard, when memory’s faded, but I remember everything. And sooner

or later it’s over forever. In debt to your priceless advice. You think you

know what brings me down; I’m sure back home they think I’ve lost my

mind. Make me pray, to say love’s confines, oh I’m just another rider

burned to the ground. I’m a liar and a thief amongst the rubble of her

body, so she fills up her sails with my wasted breath. I’d like to hear

a little guitar. Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld—I’ve searched

the holy books, it’s likely they’re just jealous and jaded. The days

and nights are long. Birds fly by a.m. In her bedroom stare, the moon

is a lightbulb breaking. Where all the bodies hang on the air, wanna get

into a car and go? Anywhere? Another turning point, a fork stuck in

the road. Her winter lips as cold as stone, secret love. Make it rhyme.

Her glove of bones at her wrist, I wear this crown of shit. Cut myself

on angel hair and baby’s breath. Sometimes everything is wrong. Here’s

an evening, dark with shame. So take the photographs and still-frames

in your mind. There’s things I remember, and things I forget. I’m so

glad that my memory’s remote. We are smoke.


*source text: Gin Blossoms - “Til I Hear It From You,”“Allison Road”

Nine Inch Nails - “Hurt”

The Goo Goo Dolls - “Iris”

Nirvana - “Heart-Shaped Box,” “Pennyroyal Tea”

Elliott Smith - “St. Ides Heaven,” “Waltz #2 (XO)”

Ben Folds Five - “Evaporated,” “Smoke”

R.E.M. - “Strange Currencies,” “Everybody Hurts”

Counting Crows - “Sullivan Street,” “Raining in Baltimore”

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - “Nobody’s Baby Now,”“West Country Girl”

Green Day - “Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)”