"My Main New Year’s Resolution Is to
Police My Own Thought-Crimes" by M; Margo
i try not to think too much because thinking always leads to depression
thinking about my life for too long feels like a form of self-injury
i think i like the idea of children more than i like children themselves
children tend to say whatever they think
i like when a child says something quirky & unexpected
like a kid in a miranda july story
me & you & everyone we know
is a pretty good movie but the trailer is ten times better than the actual movie
me & you & everyone we know
are all hurting but that’s okay because we’re here to help each other heal
or at least that’s what we try to do
i think
"All My Friends Are Dead // Everyone Is My Friend" by M; Margo
some friends left because of geography
some friends left because of ideology
some friends left because their favorite tv show was about to start
some friends left because the dogs of my music howled too loud
some friends left because i asked them to leave
some friends left just because
some friends left because i started being me
& they hated the color painted all over my fresh & happy self
some friends left because they found an easier type of love
some friends left because they wanted more of a challenge
some friends left because they wanted to kiss me & i never noticed
some friends left because our tongues touched
& the touching of our tongues felt good & electric in the moment
but then that closeness led to distance
some friends left because i was so desperately afraid of them leaving
some friends left because their bodies stopped breathing
some of those friends made their bodies stop breathing via acupuncture
some of those friends left on accident & some left on purpose
some friends left & then came back
some friends left & can never return
it’s hard to believe how many friends have stayed
may we all make it home safely